A Bad Day Turned Into A Good Experience ♡

Hey Lovelies! Remember my post on my Bad Day, well I have a bit of an update on that! My family did go on the trip I talked about & I stayed...by myself! A couple of you were kind enough to advise me to stay and embrace my time alone. Well, you guys were right! It has been a growing experience and a preview of my soon-to-be independent life. It has only been two days, but I have discovered so much strength in me and in my beliefs. I have prayed so much (as my wonderful dad advised me to) and have even avoided my emergency anxiety pills. I want to make the best out of this and want to be able to manage it on my own as I think I might be ready. 

At first I was completely terrified, as you will be able to tell from my first post on this, but now, I feel way different. Even though I feel strange, and it's not my favorite thing ever to be away from my family, I have realized that I can do it. I have given myself the chance to test my relaxing methods and overall anxiety control. It has not been easy, specially at night... but the important thing is, I have survived! My fears have always stopped me from doing so many things, and I have tried to not let them control me, but have failed multiple times. I was full of fear when I first thought about staying, and even the second before they left I thought I wouldn't be able to handle it, but I made myself let go. As much as I love my family, I need to learn how to be without them. And not just that... but, as much as I love my comfort zone, I need to learn how to step away from it. 

In only two days, I have completely changed my outlook on this whole situation. And you know what? It feels great! I still have it, I am still a little scared, but I am okay! My boyfriend has been the most supportive man ever and has treated me with such kindness throughout all of this, so I have to give him credit for keeping me calm and sane. And even though my parents are away, they are looking after me! They have showed me that I might be physically alone, but never without their love and protection. 

Staying busy has been the key! I have been doing different types of activities since the minute they left. I haven't even been on my laptop until now, but I figured I needed to express how happy and thankful I am. I wanted to share what I have done so far:

  • Driven cars for approximately 5 hours (without anxiety).
  • Watched 2 comedies with my bf!
  • Bought my new favorite nail polish and painted my nails (a very out-of my comfort zone color). :)
  • Listened to my favorite upbeat music...nothing sad as I believe that music always sets my mood!
  • Cooked food (enough amount for tomorrow 2 days).
  • Bought my favorite ice cream! 
  • Slept at least 8 hours!
I still have about a week of alone time so I have plenty of activities left to do and emotions to control, so I will keep you guys posted! :)


With love,
Nikole

Nikole

♡ Be Happy Always ♡

8 comments:

  1. Such a lovely post I also find that staying busy helps so much

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    1. Thank you so much for reading! xx

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  2. Staying busy can keep your mind off of things. Glad you did good! :) what color polish? :) music can be so therapeutic .

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    1. Yes, it definitely helps a lot! The nail polish is Tart Deco by Essie! I absolutely love it, hope you like it too! Thank you so much for the support! xx

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  3. I'm glad you are staying busy to help and keep the positive energy flowing :) Listening to my favourite music obsessions always pits me into great spirits.

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    1. Aww, thank you lovely! Yes, music fixes everything! xx

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  4. Amazing post dear!

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