At first I was completely terrified, as you will be able to tell from my first post on this, but now, I feel way different. Even though I feel strange, and it's not my favorite thing ever to be away from my family, I have realized that I can do it. I have given myself the chance to test my relaxing methods and overall anxiety control. It has not been easy, specially at night... but the important thing is, I have survived! My fears have always stopped me from doing so many things, and I have tried to not let them control me, but have failed multiple times. I was full of fear when I first thought about staying, and even the second before they left I thought I wouldn't be able to handle it, but I made myself let go. As much as I love my family, I need to learn how to be without them. And not just that... but, as much as I love my comfort zone, I need to learn how to step away from it.
In only two days, I have completely changed my outlook on this whole situation. And you know what? It feels great! I still have it, I am still a little scared, but I am okay! My boyfriend has been the most supportive man ever and has treated me with such kindness throughout all of this, so I have to give him credit for keeping me calm and sane. And even though my parents are away, they are looking after me! They have showed me that I might be physically alone, but never without their love and protection.
Staying busy has been the key! I have been doing different types of activities since the minute they left. I haven't even been on my laptop until now, but I figured I needed to express how happy and thankful I am. I wanted to share what I have done so far:
- Driven cars for approximately 5 hours (without anxiety).
- Watched 2 comedies with my bf!
- Bought my new favorite nail polish and painted my nails (a very out-of my comfort zone color). :)
- Listened to my favorite upbeat music...nothing sad as I believe that music always sets my mood!
- Cooked food (enough amount for tomorrow 2 days).
- Bought my favorite ice cream!
- Slept at least 8 hours!
I still have about a week of alone time so I have plenty of activities left to do and emotions to control, so I will keep you guys posted! :)
♥
With love,
Nikole
Such a lovely post I also find that staying busy helps so much
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Thank you so much for reading! xx
DeleteStaying busy can keep your mind off of things. Glad you did good! :) what color polish? :) music can be so therapeutic .
ReplyDeleteYes, it definitely helps a lot! The nail polish is Tart Deco by Essie! I absolutely love it, hope you like it too! Thank you so much for the support! xx
DeleteI'm glad you are staying busy to help and keep the positive energy flowing :) Listening to my favourite music obsessions always pits me into great spirits.
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Aww, thank you lovely! Yes, music fixes everything! xx
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